The Letters I Never Sent: How Writing Unsent Letters Became My Path to Healing

The Letters I Never Sent: How Writing Unsent Letters Became My Path to Healing

Over the years of being no contact with my mother, I would think of all the things I wanted to say to her and I would write them in letters I never sent.

I first started writing letters when I was making the decision to go no contact. I sent her one final letter explaining everything I felt about her and how she hurt me. What did I get in return? No apology. Nothing but gaslighting and blaming me for everything.

I realized at that point that talking to her was pointless. We were going around in circles, so I decided to start writing letters and never sending them.

After writing letters for the past 13 years, I have to say that getting everything I wanted to say off my chest felt amazing. I would cry at night and then start writing in my phone’s notepad the best way for me to write in pitch black while my husband was asleep or while rocking my children to sleep.

Those letters became a crucial part of my healing process. Instead of what I usually did pushing feelings down until I exploded I was finally putting my pain into words.

 Why Unsent Letters Work

When you’re dealing with toxic family members, especially narcissistic parents, actual communication is often impossible. They gaslight, deflect, and turn everything back on you. But unsent letters? They can’t manipulate those.

In these letters, you get to:

- Say exactly what you mean without interruption

- Express your anger without retaliation

- Tell your truth without it being twisted

- Feel heard, even if only by yourself

Getting Started: Your First Letter

If you’ve gone no contact or you have a toxic family member and you’re trying to heal, I always recommend starting with one simple step: stop pushing everything down inside and write them a letter you know you won’t send.

Let yourself truly express how much they hurt you and how you feel. Don’t worry about being “nice” or “fair.” This is your space to feel everything.

 My Letters Became My Book

I never thought anyone would see my letters, but I decided to include some in my book I Was Once The Girl In The Red House. That’s the hardest chapter for me personally because of how raw and emotional I was in those moments writing at 2 AM while pregnant, processing becoming a mother while grieving the mother I never had.

But sharing them has helped other people realize they’re not alone in their pain.

You’re Not Broken

Just remember: you’re not broken or unfixable. I found healing through my own words. I believe anyone can do the same.

Your voice matters. Your pain is valid. And sometimes the most powerful conversations are the ones no one else will ever hear.

If you want examples of how to write healing letters, you can find mine in my book “I Was Once The Girl In The Red House,” available now on Amazon